Most of us feel guilty or ashamed of our mistakes. A lot of people who suffer from a disorder like OCD are ashamed of their thoughts. They get ashamed with the thought that they are a bad person and do not deserve to feel good. This leads to a lot of excuses and negative self-talk.
While we might feel bad about our mistakes, we also tend to do things like take self-defense classes, learn to fight, and get better at the things that make us feel good when we do them. It’s because these things we do, we feel good about them.
It’s almost like you have your own feelings for someone, but you’re still not doing it. You just have to make them feel good.
I think the main reason I’m writing this right now is because the signs Colt has been given have been so obvious they don’t need to be explained. They’re just there. And as a result, they make him feel a lot better about himself. It’s like a way to help himself feel good, but without having to go through all his usual self-pitying mechanisms.
We’re just gonna say it, we feel awesome about it.
You can have self-confident feelings, but you can’t have them without taking care of your feelings. You can’t feel confident about something unless you’ve done it to find out how to do it right. If you’ve done it to find out how to do it right, you’re pretty much screwed. Because when you don’t do it right, people don’t like you very much.
Like most of us, Colt does a lot of self-analysis (as well as self-pitying) but he’s not doing it to find out how to do it right. He’s doing it to figure out why he feels so weird. Because, unlike most of us, he knows exactly what he did to mess up. It was a very long time ago, for example. He knows it was something he did with a certain person that caused him to do something so bad.
Yes, he also knows exactly what he is doing is wrong, but he never thinks he’s done anything wrong, and he doesnt think he has to fix it. He thinks that he is just being bad and that he should just go ahead and fix it. Like a lot of people, Colt is so bad at fixing himself, that he actually thinks he’s doing a good thing by fixing it.
For a while now, Colt has been blaming himself for the problem. He even thinks that he should have gotten better help when he was younger. But he’s not going to be the one to fix what happened to him. But as much as he thinks he is the one fixer of Deathloop, he’s clearly not the one fixing it.
In any other game you would think the only people who were in on the whole plan from the beginning would be the original Visionaries, but not in Deathloop. The rest of the party is still in denial about what happened to Colt. They think that he is just being “bad” or “lazy” or “being a wanker.” He is actually a very capable party member who does things like get into fights and kill people.